A Puerile's Notion

Korean Pop (Kpop)

2012-01-15T17:41:00.016+08:00

As I skimmed through my previous posts, it’s been awhile since I last wrote about my interest. The last thing I wrote was about Kpop as well but with a mixture of Twilight. Be forewarned, if you’re not interested in Kpop, then you might as well click the “x” button on the top right of the browser. I don’t intend to bore you but then, this IS my blog and right now I’m feeling like doing a post about Kpop.

Unlike others who have been introduced to the “Kpop world” since the beginning, I’ve only entered that world a few years back. Honestly, I already knew about Kpop ever since I was little; it’s just that I wasn’t bothered about it so much as I am now. I could, however say that I officially got involved with it ever since my dearest cousin wanted me to accompany her to watch Boys Over Flower. Since then on, somehow I ended up being..as you can say, obsessed with it. Speaking of which, I miss watching the SoEulmate Couple; Kim Bum and So Eun. I want them to act in a drama together again. Off track for awhile, sorry about that. This somehow reminds me when I was obsessed with the Twilight Saga. Mind you, I really love the Twilight Saga back then, and still do, just not as much as before. One fact about me, I tend to get obsessed with things easily which is not a good thing.

People who are aliens to the Kpop world might say that it’s derision and condemn it. I never actually get perturbed by this as I don’t bother about what others say. I’m just baffled why Kpop is treated differently than other music genres. I mean, it’s the same as Hollywood music except it’s just in another language. Plus, people never really condemn Jpop or Bollywood or Mpop (Mandarin pop) before but somehow, Kpop got a ‘royal’ treatment. I have people or celebrities whom I dislike, loathe, hate and whatnot as well, but you don’t see me going around bashing them on their sites. As much as I loathe them, I still respect their fans. Different people, different personalities, different tastes. Keep that in mind.

On another note, I’m grateful for being able to see 2 of my fave idol groups that once came here. First would be B2ST at One Utama, where they held their fan signing event. I must say, it’s the first time I went to something like that, and I totally loved it. Seobbie was so cute. Unfortunately, Nadia came a bit late so as soon as she arrived, the boys left. Secondly would be Super Junior at Stadium Bukit Jalil, where they held their SS3 concert there and at Putrajaya when they came for Youth Day. Although, it’s been months since these events happened, it’s still fresh in my memory like hot bread from the oven. And with this, I’m hoping to go to more fan meets or concerts in the future. Already missed a few because I was either out of the country or in college. Now, I’m just waiting for SS4 to be held here. Hope it’ll be during my semester break or holidays. I cannot miss that concert what-so-ever. I’m an ELF so it’s a major thing for me.

This is totally unrelated, but I can’t wait for Breaking Dawn Part 2! Part 1 was too quick. The book was thick, so what happened to the rest of the scenes? Hope Part 2 will be better. Speaking of which, I miss reading the books. Need to find time to read it.

Alas, I think I’m going to stop here since this is becoming quite a long post already. I’m trying to be active more on my blog but the lazy bug is not helping me. So whatever happens, happen.

Pic Spam time! Btw, the pictures aren’t mine. Credits to the owners of the pics. ;)

Untitled

2012-01-15T13:41:00.002+08:00

From beginning to end, nothing has been easy
Obstacles after obstacles stood in our path of happiness
Ocean of tears we have shed
Scars after scars have been carved in our hearts
Yet, through all this, we have become stronger,
The bond becomes tighter than ever
Whatever the obstacles may be
We will go through it together
We will not back down easily
This is our fight
And we will win this war.

"It's not an END,
but it's an AND.." (SJ Leeteuk)

Goodbye Second Home

2011-12-29T01:30:00.004+08:00

As referred to the title, it shows you that I am no longer in Shanghai. I arrived yesterday evening and ended being home at night because, instead of going straight home, me and my cousin, along with her friends, went to grab dinner first to satisfy our stomachs. Though, I didn’t eat anything because I was already full eating burger and Burger King as soon as we reached KLIA.

Anyway, my last day at Shanghai was quite fun. We went to dinner that was held by my dad’s Chinese friend, whom I heard was a millionaire. So, from that title, you can guess what sort of dinner we had. It was one of those luxurious-fancy looking food in a tiny proportion-unique shapes and sizes type of dinner in a restaurant. I think that was the first time in my life that I ate food that I never thought I would eat and I didn’t even know what type of food I ate. Some I could swallow, some were delicious and yet some were rejected by my tummy. Even so, it was a splendid experience. My dad’s friends and the other Chinese dudes were very friendly and started to chat with us, took pictures and made a toast. Of course, they toasted with wine, while we just simply did it with orange juice.

Although, it has been one full month that I nested myself there, I still can’t believe that it ended. It’s as if only yesterday I just got there and now I’m back in my living room in Malaysia. With this opportunity, I would like to thank Lee (our driver) who was willing to drive us almost everywhere and just had to tolerate with our nuisance. Not to forget, my mum’s friends who also took us to very thrilling malls and shops where our purses became thirsty at the end of the day. Last but not least, thank you to my family who just basically did everything else for us.

Don’t worry, I am so going back there! Got some unsettled shopping to do. But of course, since my cousin said she wants to go to Guangzhou first to shop, then to Hong Kong to play in the amusement parks, then to Korea to go sightseeing and back to Shanghai to rest. Or was it Korea first, then Hong Kong? Oh well, we’ll just have to plan that later. ;)

Do I Still Have The Right?

2011-12-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

I’ve told them a million times that I’ve missed them, and honestly, I do. If this is so, why does every time they held a gathering, I am always unable to attend? Every effing single time. I would either be busy with my college classes, or I have no transport, or I’m at my aunt’s place or I’m not in the country. Either way, I would always miss their little gathering. No matter how hard I tried ransacking my brain trying to figure a way out, somehow our schedules have become like enemies. This is just unfair. I feel as if I’m playing with our friendship even though I don’t mean to. I feel as if I don’t deserve them since they’ve always tried to meet me and have always said they miss me, but all I could do back was just say I miss them back. Our homes aren’t even oceans apart, so why is it so hard for me to meet them.

With that said, do I still have the right to say I miss them?

Second Home

2011-12-25T02:57:00.004+08:00

After what seems like an eternity, finally I have successfully pushed myself to write an entry. I don’t know why the lazy bug chose to bite me since I used to love scribbling my thoughts here. Honestly, I’m at a dead end here. I have a pool of stories to tell yet I don’t know where to begin. Not only that but it appears that my English need some sharpening since it is becoming dangerously dull. Thus, I apologize if there are grammar mistakes or misuse of words. I really am lacking right now. My brain is super rusty that even oil won’t do the trick.

Moving on, some might or might not know that, I have been dwelling in Shanghai since last month. I came to visit my family who have been nesting here since last July and probably for another 4 years. Even though, I stayed for a whole month here yet it seems like I’ve just arrived and not ready to go back. I have toured to various of places that some of the names slipped my mind because it was too hard to remember. The atmosphere here is palpably different from Malaysia’s. One thing I absolutely love here is that most of the people here would walk to their destinations. Walking in Winter is just too pleasant because of the cool air and no need to worry about sweating like a pig. The sceneries are also breath-taking. Another thing I love is that I can buy a bag full of things without spending too much. The catch is just to know how to bargain. I can reduce the price from RMB800 to simply RMB200, or from RMB200 to RMB50. You just need to master bargaining with them and you’re set to go. Due to this, my luggage is full with things my mum bought for me to pass on to my relatives. One more day here and I think my luggage would be overweight. The only thing that lacks here is that they don’t understand English quite well, so I need to have either my mum’s friend (Aunty Norin) or our driver (Lee) with us when we go shopping so they can help us do the bargaining, as well as the amount of Halal food here is below the red bar.

Another thing that I’m quite upset is that it hasn’t snowed yet! I was waiting for snow to fall but it’s not cold enough. Surprisingly, even when it’s 0oC , it wasn’t as cold as I expect it to be. While others were wearing 3-4 layers of clothes, I would be wearing only 2 layers of clothes, including the jacket. What can I say; I guess I love the Winter season and its cool characteristic. Looks like I’m going to have to go to Korea later in the Winter season to experience snow (crossing my fingers and hope it’ll come true).

Forgot to mention one thing, the people here really seems like they haven't seen people wearing veils/shawls and whatnot. For a second there, I had a bit of an insight of being a celebrity! LOL ;p Most of them were staring with eyes wide open, literally like had their mouths open too, some even wanted to take pictures with us which made us frozen with confusion and shock. Nonetheless, we still took the pictures with them. Also, when we went to a certain store, they also just had to be at that store as well even though it was empty at first. When we bought that specific stuff, they also bought. That just made me laugh with awe. Those situations just were so amusing to me. Truly, won't be a forgettable memory.

Shanghai, China

2011-06-19T22:41:00.007+08:00

Shanghai; “Located in eastern China, at the middle portion of the Chinese coast, and sits at the mouth of the Yangtze River. Due to its rapid growth over the last two decades it has again become a global city, exerting influence over finance, commerce, fashion, technology and culture. Shanghai is also a popular tourist destination renowned for its historical landmarks such as The Bund, City God Temple and Yuyuan Garden, as well as the extensive and growing Pudong skyline. It is described as the "showpiece" of the booming economy of mainland China.” (extract from Wikipedia)

Now, why am I suddenly talking about Shanghai? The answer would most probably be the fact that my family will soon be moving there. Just like when we moved to Johannesburg, South Africa. Oh, side note; this time, I’ll be left behind! My mum wants me to complete my studies here first so that’s why she wants me to stay behind. I was distraught about it at first but come to think of it, it ain’t that bad. Inasmuch as, if I move there, I have to open a new book and not to mention, the educational system there is quite arduous. Besides, I can always visit my family there during the holidays. Moreover, the cherry of this sundae is that this will teach me to stand on my own two feet confidently since my family won’t be here to help me. So, I’ll count that as a bonus.

As aforementioned, since this similar to the time when we moved to S.A, the period is also similar. They’ll be living there for a minimum of 4 years. Since I’m walking down memory lane, now I’m beginning to miss S.A again. I miss my peeps there especially during my studies there at Grayston Preparatory. Don’t get me started on the food there. It’s like heaven! The yogurt, candy necklaces and bracelets, frozen yogurt, chocolate bunnies and others that I won’t mention because if I do, it’ll take forever for me to stop! The malls, water parks, carnivals and markets there are also my favourites. I will never forget the memories I’ve made while I was there. It’s already been filed and organized neatly on the shelf in my memory cabinet at the back of my head. Before I bore you any further, let’s get the train back on its track shall we?

“Known as the 'Oriental Paris', Shanghai is a shopper's paradise. There are various bustling commercial streets and shopping centers waiting for the shopaholic. One of the musts for tourists is the Nanjing Road. Huaihai Road intrigues those with modern and fashionable tastes, while North Sichuan Road meets the demands of ordinary folk. Xujiahui Shopping Center, Yuyuan Shopping City and Jiali Sleepless City are also thriving and popular destinations.” This information isn’t really mandatory or de rigueur. I just put it up because it just caught my eye. My imagination is on the loose again like wild horses because of this extract. It’s gonna take a while for me to tame these horses again. I really wish I knew how to control these horses so that it won’t go wild again.

My family will fly in July, right after they help me register back into college. Meaning, I’ll be going to college, and they’ll go China. The green monster is present whenever I think about this. Thank heavens that the monster isn’t big so I can still cope with it. Nevertheless, I still wish my family the best. Hope they’ll be able to adapt quickly when they’re there and won’t have any obvious obstacles standing in their path. Hope everything will turn out smoothly. To my sisters who will be studying there, I wish them the best and all the luck there is in this world since I know studying there will be quite challenging. Have fun in Shanghai but don’t have too much fun or else the green monster will turn into Hulk! ;p

Short Entry

2011-06-16T19:04:00.001+08:00

I decided to change my blog design...again. LOL ;p I was bored of it so decided to change it. Still in the process of changing it. Will update later. ;)

Rusty

2011-06-12T22:28:00.003+08:00

It’s been ages since I last wrote an entry haven’t it? Sorry for the silence. There have been quite a few events in the past few months and I want to write an entry about it yet the lazy monster got the best of me. Currently, I’m having my semester break. Well, honestly it’s been a month since the last day of final exams. Word on the street is that I might be registering back into college around early July but no announcement has been made yet. Well, not that I encounter any. How did I spend my holidays? Truthfully, I can’t recall all of them, only a few. Before that, I would like to apologize for my crappy writing since I haven’t written anything in a while so it’s a LOT rusty.

The only events that are fresh in my memory like fresh bread coming out from the oven is the Youth Day at Putrajaya when Super Junior M came and performed. I met up with my friends (Ain,Charice,Alya & Faee) at Petronas in my house area since they don’t know the way to the location. We arrived at the destination around 11am if I’m not mistaken. Even though, SJM’s concert was late at night, a lot of ELFs were already there waiting and wandering around to kill the time. It was seriously crowded. Felt like sardine in a tin. While waiting for the big event, we wandered around, watched other performances and mostly just sat and chatted. After waiting for what seemed like eternity, they finally appeared and well, I guess you can assume what happened next. Me and my friends mostly screamed, sang, and…screamed! LOL ;p We did fangirling like there was no tomorrow which made the night more memorable. :’)

A week later (I think), me and my family went back to our hometown, my grandparents’ place on my dad’s side. We spent an entire week there yet somehow, it didn’t feel like a week. How fast time is flying is seriously scaring the crap out of me. We didn’t do much there except went to a couple of weddings, went shopping and just lazing around the house.

Other than stuffing my face at home, welcoming fat with open arms, dulling my brain, and fetching my sisters to and from school, I also went out with my friends and bestfriends. I would like to thank Nadia, Asmaq, Fatin, Basyar, Sheedan & Fairi for willing to spend time with me. We basically went to Alamanda to catch a movie, eat and just did some catching up. Even so, it was splendid. A highlight to Nadia, Basya & Sheedan for spending time with me again a few days ago to celebrate mine & Nadia’s birthday together. The song you guys sang for us was really touching. :’) Sorry for being inactive that day though.

Speaking of which, yes, it was my birthday a few days ago. 8th June to be precise. It wasn’t my birthday only but also my close friend’s birthday, Nadia. We have the same birth date and we’ve been celebrating our birthdays together since we were 16 years old. I still remember our first day at SMK Putrajaya Presint 8(1), when me and Nadia were both newbies and we instantly clicked together because we found out that we had the same birthdays. I love you my unrelated twin and also thank you for the present! Totally love it! :’) I got to celebrate my birthday with my aunties and cousins as well due to the fact that they slept over at my place. Thank you to my besties; Asha and Helena for celebrating my birthday as well and also for the treat and surprise cake you gave me at the restaurant. I love you both to bits! Best friends for 7 years and counting! :’) Thank you also to Charice and Boon for actually dropping by my house, visiting me and also the presents. I love you guys loads!

I think that’s all I could recall, the rest were just simple events so it didn’t matter as much. I don’t know when else I’m gonna write and entry but I hope it won’t be for months later to come.

change?

2011-03-10T13:50:00.004+08:00

The holidays that marks the reminder that time waits for no one as I am already half-way through my 2^nd semester which will soon lead to the 3^rd semester is only a day away. This year also marks the year that I will soon be turning 19 years old. What have I achieved in my life? What have I been doing all these years? These golden questions only Allah knows the answer as I, myself have no answer to these sacred questions. Tomorrow I will be going home for the holidays coming up. Leisure time is restricted to me because of the assignments that I need to complete. It will only be a week period of holiday so slacking off is a big NO for me. I need to learn to push myself to achieve what I want but it will be like trying to tame a wild horse.

For the past few weeks, I’ve started to feel something different in me. Not quite sure if it’s a good or bad thing as it is still not crystal clear yet. My appetite for ice-cream started to change. If before, I would go nuts for ice-cream and eat it almost 3 times a day but now, whenever I see ice-cream, I don’t feel anything. I miss eating ice-cream like monkeys going bananas for bananas but somehow, I can only watch my friends eat it. It’s still unclear if it’s temporary or permanent, only time will tell.

I kept on pondering about what my mind had fathom every night. Sometimes, I cry myself to sleep for those not so solid reasons or even when watching hilarious/serious/thriller movies/dramas, tears would just trickle down my cheeks. Sensitive may be the word for me but be it. My mind would be floating above the clouds almost every second. Floating around freely and without worries. If only my soul and body can tag along with my mind, it would be so much easier for me. I am at a state where I can't even distinguish the girl in the mirror anymore. The girl who just stares back at me with its unfamiliar eyes and empty soul calling out for me. Just as I was about to reach her hand, to who I was once close to but now a total stranger to me, just as our fingers touch, the cruel reality pulled my hand away with much force like trying to pull a magnet away from metal. As time passes, the girl can only wait for a miracle to happen or at least for things to be back to normal.

March Already?

2011-03-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

It seems to be ages since I last update my blog and looks like the spiders are already feeling all comfy building their webs here. Sorry for the silence. Frankly, I have 1001 things to tell yet somehow my laziness took control of me. Apart from that, the mountain of assignments has been a barrier for me to write a post. I tried to squeeze in a little time to write an entry yet it failed. Usually, after class ends, which is roughly around evening, I would spend my time on the computer, downloading videos/movies or you would find me at the field playing volleyball/handball with my classmates. Yes, as surprising as can be, I now play sports in the evening with my classmates. Mind you, it’s not actually a UFO sighting; so, don’t be too flabbergasted about it. It’s just me playing sports. Nothing big or fancy about it.

Anyway, without even realizing, March has come to greet us and February waved their farewell to us. Time has surely been zooming past us without a care in the world. I still can’t accept the fact that March is here and I’m already half way through my 2^nd semester. The feeling of wondering what I did with my time seems to linger on me every day. However, even knowing that time feels short, a lot of things happened during these past few months. Things I would expect and also ones that are like a bomb where it explodes without warning. Déjàvu also seems to occur unexpectedly. It’s a real mystery how the world works. Every moment of every day seems to have a surprise waiting for us. Conversely, drama seems to be never ending for me. The world is a stage after all, so it’s no wonder that there would be acting from so many actors and actresses. Since the ticket for the theater is non- refundable, I can only just sit and watch the dramas in front of me and hope for me not be involved in it. I’d prefer to be the audience rather than the actors unless the drama is beneficial. For my March wish, I just wish that I can focus on my studies more and pray for better results and a better me.

College Mates :)

2011-01-13T14:13:00.005+08:00

I think it’s about time I introduce my friends in KPM properly. Well, just my closest friends. If I were to introduce all my friends here then I’m afraid I’m going to bore you. So, let’s avoid that shall we? FYI, won't be saying their full names here. Just their nicknames. ;) Here we go.

Introducing, Tira ! She’s beautifully sculpted ain’t she? ;) She was my roommate last semester and she is still my roommate this semester. She’s been a good friend to me since the beginning of last semester until now. We share the same interest too which is Kpop yet I must admit that I’m a bit more fanatic than her. ;p However, she’s a big fan of Taylor Swift. :) She’s a good listener and a good adviser. She listens to my problems and gives out obliging advises. In a way, we’re alike when it comes to swallowing what other people say but now she’s become more..heartless which is good for when people tries to step on her. I’m proud of her. ;) She’s actually a sweet strawberry once you get to know her. She’s helped me a lot during my stay here in college and I owe her for that. ;)

This engaging young lady is called Alya. She was my roommate during orientation week last semester but then I moved to the room next door. So, last semester we were neighbours but now we’re roommates again. She’s also been a good friend to me since the beginning until now. She is also another friend who I share my Kpop passion with except she’s more into Kdramas and Family Outing. :) She’s also a good listener and gives out good advices. She’s been helping me throughout being here, thus making me love her more.

Next, the attractive little lady in the picture above is Faiqah yet I call her Charice because she somewhat resembles Charice Pempengco a bit. Since last semester, I’ve been calling her that and she doesn’t seem to mind so it becomes like her little nickname. She apparently lives in the same neighbourhood as me which gave me a pleasant shock when I knew about it. She’s really amiable whether you know her or not. She loves to talk to people and make new friends. A mum is what she is to me because she cares for me like a mum does. We started to become close as the days passed and now you can almost say we’re inseparable. Last semester, my room was her room too and now her room is my room too. She is really like an angel in disguise, caring for others and loving others like no other friends have.

Lala is what I call this person in the picture above. Her name is actually Syafiqah but like a tsunami coming out of nowhere, Lala became her nickname. Don’t know how she got that nickname and pretty much everyone including our lecturers were wondering how she got that nickname. Anyways, she is also another of my Kpop friends. She is an astounding graphic designer. Her drawings are just awe-inspiring. She’s also a down-to-earth person and sometimes can be very vain. ;p When I need a laugh, I’ll go to her as she is my laughing gas.

Lastly, this is Bun. His name is actually Ahmad Syazwan but we call him Bun. I didn't actually intend to write a post about him but since he asked before, so I have no choice. LOL ;p. Anyways, he's a VERY friendly person yet can be VERY vain! His personality is sorta like a clown, very witty indeed. Even though, he's a playful person, he knows when to get serious and actually has a caring side of him. He knows how to balance himself out, so kudos for him. Like Lala, he's also my laughing gas. ;)

Frankly, I still have more people to introduce but I'll do that later. I'll do it in part 2 ! Heee :)

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2011-01-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

As New Year arrived, a new book is opened and we’re supposed to have a clean start. However, bumps and obstacles have already stood in my path just as the clock strikes 12. I didn’t have a clean start to begin with and probably will end the same way as the year ends. Emotion and physical impediment are the main challenges that I’ve been facing. So far, I’m just thankful that the hurdles are only on level 1 and 2, so it’s endurable for now.

A few days ago, I stepped into the world where I once lived in again. Yes, my life as a college student has started again and I am now officially a semester 2 student. I can’t say nothing has changed yet can’t say so much has changed as well. Before this, I didn’t understand why people have been fretting and agonizing about the same concern which is; age, but now I can. I can’t say that I truly understand now but I can get a glimpse of it a bit. I’ll be turning 19 years old soon this year and it’s more than I bargained for. I have never thought of reaching this age so quickly that the things that I have never even thought about have conquered my brain. It may seem like it’s not such a big deal yet somehow to me it is. It means that time has been zooming by before my eyes like a flash and I didn’t realize it one bit. I have been dazed and mesmerized by living in my own world that I didn’t notice I’ve let time slip by me. It’s true what they say; “time doesn’t wait for anyone” . Well, at least now I know I need to get my head in the game. Entertainment is fine as long as I know how to balance it well. ;)

Happy New Year :D

2011-01-01T14:53:00.004+08:00

Hello there. Yes, this blog is still breathing after a few days being in coma mode and I’m dusting off the dust and the spider webs now. I know I have promised to keep updating my blog yet somehow, my mind says otherwise. I have been trying to push myself to write, yet, like trying to push an elephant out of the way, it was no use. I have set the level of lazy-ness to a whole new level. Oh yeah, almost forgot, Happy New Year people! ;) Sorry for the late wish but lately I’m just not bothered by anything else except Kpop. LOL ;p Note; this post may be a bit crappy and gibberish as I’m still rusty from not writing an entry for a while now. So, consider yourself warned. ;p

It’s a new year which means, that the 2010 book have finally been finished and closed and now is stored safely in the library of life. A lot of things happened during 2010 that if I were to write it down, it would go on for weeks. I’ve made plenty of sweet yet also bitter memories along my journey. Some of it was a waste while the rest were memorable, though I do not regret it. Whether, it was sweet or bitter, I cherish them all. Now, it’s time to start fresh, anew. Open up a new book and hope to fill it with more sweet memoirs rather than the bitter ones. Somehow, to me I feel no difference when this new stranger, who goes by the name of 2011 appear right before my eyes. Oh well, only time will tell if it really is no different than 2010 or not.

I am expecting changes in 2011 though, for example, the biggest one might be that my family will move to Shanghai soon and apparently, leave me behind. :/ The bars of college are holding me back from following my family to Shanghai. Somehow, college is starting to look like a prison which is imprisoning me and tying me down with its chains from making me escape. I’m not saying I’m blaming college for this (okay, maybe a bit) but if my family moved last year, I might be studying there right now. Like they say, every cloud has a silver lining and come to think of it, I think this is the best for me because if I were to study there, then I would need to learn math and science again, which by the way, I’m not really fond of. So, yeah, there’s always a reason for everything that’s happening. :) And I can always go visit my family there during semester breaks, so I’m looking forward to it. Speaking of looking forward to things, I am anticipating Super Junior Super Show 3 (SS3) , U-Kiss’s and 2PM’s concerts coming soon this year. However, SS3 hasn’t been confirmed yet but I’m really hoping they don’t cancel it. SM Entertainment, you’d better not cancel it or I swear I’ll curse you to the ends of the earth! Which reminds me, Digi Kpop Party will be on the 13th January yet I can’t go because of college. Why in the world are they doing it on a weekday anyway? Don’t they know kids need to go to school and teens to their colleges/universities? Haihh. Looks like I can’t meet B2ST again. :/ Hoping they’ll do their B2ST Airlines here soon. Heee :)

Okay, enough about that before I bore you any further. Like I said before, I have 4 more days here and I’m far from packing or getting things that are needed for college. Although, my parents told me to not do things at the eleventh hour, I tend to not listen as I am the type to do things at the eleventh hour. LOL ;p Sorry guys. Haha . I think I’m going to stop here because somehow I have no idea what to write anymore. I’ll probably update later. I think. Well, don’t count on it too much. ;p

Later and Happy 2011 ! :D

Dedicated To You Guys ; SNSD - Best Friend

2010-12-08T10:38:00.003+08:00

Spent all night making this . Hope you enjoy Asha , Helena , Nadia and Amaq ! ;)

Thank you for being my backbone and giving me support when I needed it . Thank you for lending your ears for when I was down or just crapping . Thank you for being you and being there for me .

Saranghaeyo chinguya ! ;D

Narnia 3D

2010-12-07T19:41:00.003+08:00

I woke up around 8 am today , scratch that , I was woken up by my dad’s constant nagging around 8 am today . He was complaining about how a young lady shouldn’t wake up so late and shouldn’t sleep late for that matter . With my eyes still glued together , I had to literally drag my body to go take a shower . Our movie starts at 1.00pm yet had to wake up early . There goes my beauty sleep . LOL ;p .

Anyways , we left home around 11.45am and arrived at IOI Mall later on . I kept questioning why there were so many people at IOI Mall and gridlocks here and there . Like a coconut that had just fallen onto my head , a light bulb lighted above my head , it just came to me that today was a public holiday . If not , what on earth would my dad be there with us instead of working himself at his office . Sometimes , I can be vacuous for no reason . Oh well .

The movie was supposed to start at 1.00pm but somehow it started later than that . Not a minute late , not 15 minutes late but almost half an hour late . I have no idea what was going on in the cinema that they only let us in later , but smokes were almost coming from my ears . I felt like I was about to explode . Thank heavens , I was listening to my MP3 player , so it calmed me down a bit . Even my food was finished before I even got in the cinema . haih .

As for the movie , in my opinion , it was awesome ! Furthermore , it was in 3D which made it beyond awesome ! I always loved watching Narnia since the beginning until now . However , I hate goodbyes and Narnia seems to like saying goodbyes even from the first movie . Narnia always tend to leave me crying in the end and I hate that . :/ Narnia 4 better have a happy ending so it will make me leave with smiles instead of tears ! Like I said in my previous posts , I love watching magical , fairytale-like movies . For example , Narnia of course , Harry Potter , Cinderella , The Little Mermaid , Mulan , Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief, Hercules or even Sailor Moon and such . Call me cheesy if you want or even childish , I don’t give a damn . Everyone is entitled to their own opinions and interests and this is one of them . To me , when I watch these movies , I get so engrossed in it . The problems and dilemmas that I have tend to disappear into thin air and I could forget about my worries . Even though , I know that such things can never be real , I sometimes wish it does exist . Their world is just so beautiful that it mesmerizes me and catches my breath . I ended up listening to slow songs later , on my way back home and got lost in my sea of thoughts that I didn’t even hear what my parents were saying to me .

Oh , how I wish it was real .

Antis / Haters

2010-12-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

I’m just curious to how antis/haters think . What is their motive or purpose of leaving behind anti/hater comments ? Seriously , it doesn’t make sense . Why on earth , would they even go to the person’s website , Youtube videos , Myspace , heck , even Twitter that they dislike ? You say stuff to offend not only that person but also their fans and friends . I admit , I also have people that I dislike , or even LOATHE for that matter , but you don’t see me on their websites and such , leaving anti/hater comments . Why would I even go to that person’s websites and such if it has nothing to do with me or my interest ? It is certainly not worth my precious time . I don’t know what their latest news but you guys seem to know everything since you even commented on their latest music video , as an example . Do you have that much free time ? Or is your life in black and white ? You say this and you say that , but are you perfect enough for commenting like that ? Do you think you’re better than them ? Pft , I doubt that ! No matter what you guys say , it doesn’t bring any benefit . While you’re in front of your laptop/PC , trash talking them , they’re out there making money , being famous and living a good life . Are you just doing this because of the cheap fame ? You know that when you trash talk them , it will gain attention amongst their fans , thus the reason why you’re doing it right ? Hah ! Pathetic much ? If you still want to trash talk them , go ahead . You’re just wasting your time because even with all your trash talking , they’re still SOMEBODY while you’re a NOBODY ! ;)

Finally ;p

2010-12-06T15:59:00.003+08:00

Took me a while to do this because didn't have the mood to do so . LOL ;p Anyways, "thank you" Amaq for tagging me . :/

1. Apa benda yang paling penting dalam hidup korang?

erm , phone and laptop .

2. Benda terakhir yang korang beli menggunakan duit korang sendiri?

A diary ;p

Dimanakah tempat korang ingin melangsungkan perkahwinan korang dan tema perkahwinan korang nanti?

Heh ? Dunno . hahaha

Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

Nopee . ;)

Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

IF I have one . ;p

Di manakah korang selalu berjumpa kekasih korang?

Doesn't matter .

Novel / Buku / Majalah terakhir yang korang beli?

Cecelia Ahern - The Book Of Tomorrow . Love her books ! ;D

Apakah nama penuh korang?

Nur Syahirah Bt Effendy

Antara mak dan ayah korang, yang mana korang lagi mesra?

erm , mom ?

Namakan orang yang korang betulbetul nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?

hmm .... kalo more than 1 leyh ? hahah

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

Depends . ahhahaha ;p

Dimanakah tempat yang korang betulbetul nak pergi?

Mingukk ! Koreaa ! :D

Pilih satu, peluk atau cium?

Huggg .

Beritahu 3 bende tentang orang yang tag korang?

VERY talkative ( ;p ) , a good listener and adviser && a bit nutss . hahaha ;p

5 benda yang korang sayang sangat dalam hidup korang?

My Phone

My Memories

My Laptop and Hard disc ;p

My Bantal Busuk ;p

My pearls ;)

3 lagu yang korang paling suka dan selalu dengar?

only 3 ?? haha .

Bila tarikh lahir korang dan kat mana korang sambut tahun lepas?

8 June 1992 , erm .. xingt . hahah ;p

7 orang blogger yang korang nak tag?

Whoever wishes to do so , go ahead ;)

Cerita sikit blogger pertama yang korang tag?

didn't tag anyone . LOL ;p

26 November 2010; Kak Nana's convocation

2010-11-27T21:46:00.007+08:00

I meant to write this yesterday yet somehow, I was so drained out that as soon as I got home, I blacked out . Anyways, yesterday was my cousin’s convocation at UiTM Shah Alam. She finally graduated after 3 years of learning..or at least I think it was 3 years.

I didn’t sleep the night before that because I was too busy watching Kdramas. LOL ;p So, you can imagine how sleepy I was on that day. My aunty and her family came around 9am to pick us up to go to my cousin’s university. We stopped at a restaurant to eat first then off to go buy flowers for her. When we arrive at our destination, my cousin was still in the hall while her family waited outside for it to finish. I was quite surprised at the number of flowers that her family bought for her. It was a tad too much. There were at least 6 bouquets of flowers plus teddy bears including ours.

When she finally came out, me and my cousins virtually ran to her and said our congratulations to her. Taking pictures is a must on that day, so we took plenty of pictures. Later, my family along with her family went to the hotel first while I stayed behind and accompanied my cousin to take pictures with her friends and settle some stuff. We later reunited with our families and went out to eat. When we were done, the rest went home while me and my sister, Ikah stayed behind and followed my cousin to go have photo shoots with her friends, of course, we didn’t fail to appear in a few pictures or so.

We ended around 6pm, and went out to eat again, but this time with my cousin’s friends as well. It was hanging out with her friends. We talked about basically almost anything and well, Kpop related stuff also came out. It turns out that her friend has a younger sister about my age and loves Kpop too. LOL ;p He said that he’d have his sister to buy me a souvenir from Korea. I’ll be waiting! Kidding. I’m not expecting anything and I’m certainly not going to go shamelessly accept stuff from someone I barely knew. Moving on. We went home around 10pm last night because we stopped at IOI Mall first to go catch a movie. We ended up watching Rapunzel 3D. Let me tell you this, it was awesome! It was funny, romantic and beautiful. Call me cheesy if you want, but I just absolutely LOVE fairy-tale like movies like Disney movies (especially cartoons like Cinderella, Mulan and etc) because it feels magical and it’s beautiful. If only life would be like that. I’d be the happiest girl on earth! ;p

My cousin slept over at my place last night, so the next morning; we went out with her again. We just couldn’t get enough of her because it’s hard to see her nowadays because of her work. We went out to eat, apparently, eating is a must when it comes to hanging out with my cousin or her family or any of my relatives; mum’s side. She went back to her home in Ipoh around 4pm today and already, I miss her.

Anyways, I’m going back to my village in Kelantan, tomorrow morning so need to go pack. Will update soon. I think. ;p

생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)

2010-11-26T00:35:00.004+08:00

생일축하합니다

(saengil chukha hamnida)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOGGIE !

Just like that, 3 years have passed. You have been like a friend to me who I can talk to without holding myself back. A place where I can vomit out everything without worrying about anything. A place where I've shared my laughter, tears, anger, and boredom with. I'm truly grateful. Thank you bloggie for being there for me. ;)

SARANGHAEYO

I LOVE YOU BLOGGIE ;D

Ola ;)

2010-11-19T23:00:00.001+08:00

Yes , as you can see, I've changed my layout because it seemed dull . This time, I decided to try something different . LOL ;p . Anyways, thank you for being patient but I'm not here for good yet . I still have 3 papers left to take . So , after I'm done with the papers then I'll write you a long post that even you will be annoyed to read . haha ;p

Till then , later ;)

M.I.A ?

2010-11-10T04:11:00.003+08:00

I'm not really missing in action or some sort. I've just been busy to update my blog. The finals are in a few days and so is the due date for the assignments. Do the math. A lot of things happened and I'll promise I'll write them down soon. If I still remember it that is. All I can say is that now I know all their hidden colours and I'm tired. I'm tired of doing almost everything and them just waiting to be spoon-fed. My strength is really getting weak as the days pass. Not having the strength to even stand is the proof to how weak I am. You can ask my friend for confirmation. She's the only that's been truly a backbone to me lately . Only my true friends knows what situation I'm in. I'm just thankful to have them giving support from behind. Thank you . Saranghaeyo !

I'll update back after the finals which will end on the 24/11 . So, until then . Wish me luck for .. everything !

Friendship & Life

2010-09-30T14:53:00.002+08:00

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.” (C. S. Lewis)

As days passed, more and more chapters are introduced into the book of life that it has already become thick enough for me to handle. The absurd predicaments of friendship left me glued with stress. Thus, headaches and chest pains became my new friends. I am emotionally drained by the drama and physically challenged by health problems. I loathe myself for behaving in a way I’ve never imagined. The brush that is used to paint the artwork of life is now mostly made out of anxiety, quandaries and perplexity. My imaginations sometimes have been running wild like wild horses in an open field and sometimes I can’t get a grasp at reality. I can’t differentiate reality and fantasy. However, there are at times when my mind is as blank as a big, white canvas. The horses somehow won’t budge from their stables. They just stand there and do nothing. Absolutely nothing happens. You can even hear a pin drop to show how empty my mind is. The feeling of being neglected is somehow what vexing. And not just any person but that unambiguous, certain person whom I loathe yet love at the same effing time. What in the universe is wrong with me, even I, myself don’t have the answer to that golden question.

I keep breaking my vow into pieces like broken glasses. Somehow, actions speak louder than words. I keep giving yet hardly receiving, not that I’m expecting anything. It’s just that, I want to experience it once in a while. I need someone to be the umbrella when it rains. Once I had the chance to tell my soul and let out almost everything that I’ve been secretly hiding, it was as if a dark cloud had disappeared and a rainbow formed above my head. Being too nice and naïve are my quirks yet it’s also a specialty. It’s a curse I’m damned upon since I was born. Every day, I hope that a fairy godmother would come and cure this curse with a swing of her wand yet nothing is happening. I sacrifice my happiness for others and I’m getting tired by the fake smile that I’ve been giving to others. It’s as though, my feelings aren’t with me anymore. A part of me is screaming, struggling, wanting to escape from the bars of misery yet somehow the bars won’t budge even an inch. It is imprisoned there for an unknown period of time. Despondency and desolation are wrapping me like a cocoon, giving me no space to breath, suffocating me. I’m just waiting for the moment to break free and become a beautiful, free, and content butterfly.

My spirit and will is also disappearing bit by bit like the icebergs in the North Pole. Which by the way is a sign that the end is coming? I’ve been crapping so much that I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore. So, pardon me. Note: crap alert. I just remembered something, I had a dream of SuJu and it was awesome! In the dream, HanKyung was drifting with me in the car and apparently he’s good in English so he became my translator when talking with the other SuJu members. LMAO :p . They were so witty, sporting and fun. It was so clear as if it was for real. Unfortunately, Tira woke me up and I had to leave just when Heechul was about to do something funny. Grr. I love them! Going off topic for a while here. Even when I have no mood, but when I talk about Kpop I become alive somehow. I guess my obsession with Kpop is the only thing that keeps me breathing apart from oxygen and the love from my friends and family.

So, what’s the relation with the quote and the gibberish things that I just jabbered on you may ask? I actually planned to write about my pearls yet somehow my fingers have a mind of its own. I think I’ve already written tons of posts about my friends in my previous posts and you may get tired of reading the same thing again. But sweetie, it’s my blog so I’ll do as I please. If you don’t like it, then what are you doing here? Scram!

To me, friendship is something that you can’t buy with money or things. You can’t measure friendship based on worldly goods. Friendship could be a wonderful thing yet at the same time it could be a lethal weapon. One needs to really appreciate the value of their friendship to taste the sweetness of it. A friend plays a vital role to make the friendship work. The type of people you befriend with portrays who you are, like a mirror. In the midst of having a tough time, my friends are the ones that support me. They are the backbone to the body of life, the shoulder for me to cry on, the helping hand when I need one, the oxygen mask when I couldn’t breathe, the cane when I couldn’t stand up, the colours to bring colour to this dull world and the shield to protect me from harm. Without them, my life would be dull and boring like the black and white movies in the olden days. They’re so precious to me and they mean so much to me that there aren’t even any suitable words to describe them. I think I better stop here since this post seems to be long enough and I don’t want to bore you any further. Maybe in the next post I’m going to write about my friends here in college. IF I have the time . ;p

Later people.

Happy Eid Mubarak

2010-09-09T12:41:00.001+08:00

The holy month of Ramadhan is about to end soon and we will be greeted with the new month ; Syawal . People here and there are ecstatic about the new month yet some people see no difference to it . For example , myself . As people are in the midst of preparing for the arrival of the new month , I ask myself the question that still has no answer ; Why am I not excited like everyone else ? Some say it’s because I’ve grown and many other acceptable answers . As of now , even though those answers are acceptable yet none of it is 100% accurate . I’m still searching for the answer yet it feels like searching for a needle in a haystack .

Slowly , the spirit is fading like an anchor sinking into the ocean . I tried to regain my spirit back yet somehow I just couldn’t . Oh well , there’s nothing I can do now . Anyways , Happy Eid Mubarak . I would like to seek forgiveness to those who I’ve offended or have hurt you . Forgive me for all the wrongdoings I’ve done to you . Let’s start a new chapter shall we ? ;) May luck and happiness follow you around like a shadow does . have a festive Raya . ;)

Enjoy your holidays people ! :D

Current Events

2010-09-07T23:25:00.008+08:00

4/9/10 – Saturday

My friend woke me up at 9.00 am due to the fact that it was our last day at the hostel before going home for the Raya holidays. My eyes felt as though there was big , heavy rock on them as they were hard to keep it open . It may be due to the fact that I barely had any sleep that night . I slept around 5.00 am and got up at 9.00 am . 4 hours of sleep only , no wonder my eyes were rebelling . We went to the bus terminal around 11.00 am yet our bus departs at 1.10 pm . Meaning , we had to wait there for quite a long period . I had a hard time fighting with my rebellious eyes . Fortunately , I succeeded in resisting to sleep until I got on the bus . On the bus , I put on my earphones , listened to Kpop songs and blacked out . When we arrived , my friend sitting next to me told me that her shoulder became the victim to my head because my head kept hitting her shoulder . Err , sorry barney ! You know how sleepy I was . Hee ;p . Anyways , my parents picked me up at the bus station and we went to Jusco next to break our fast . When me and my sisters met , Kpop related issues were all we talked about . LOL ;p . After we broke our fast , we went home and instead of getting ready to sleep , the internet was the first thing I did . I was actually still sleepy yet somehow , I didn’t want to sleep . I stayed up all night downloading videos and watching movies even though the next day I had a date with my friends . Hee ;p

5/9/10 – Sunday

It was the day when I went out with my friends , specifically , Nadia , Khalil , Muqsid and Fattah . My parents dropped me off at Nad’s place as usual and we waited for the guys to pick us up . Predictably , the guys were once again late . I see they haven’t changed . When they finally arrived , we went to Times Square for shopping . Me and Nad basically went to every shop there . The guys just patiently waited and followed us around . Hey , think of it as training when you guys get married soon . You’ll have to follow your wife around when she goes shopping anyways . LOL ;p . After Nad is satisfied , sorta , we headed off to Sunway Pyramid to go break our fast . Apparently , it didn’t go as planned . We ate separately . Me and Nad ate at a Korean Restaurant and the guys ate at a Japanese restaurant and we all had dessert after that . We wanted to go ice-skating yet the time wasn’t on our side , so we had to leave as it was already getting late . My friends took me home that night .

6/9/10 – Monday

I didn’t do much on this day . I wanted to go out with my pearls yet didn’t have the chance . So , I just went shopping a bit with my mum and stayed home , sleeping and continuing downloading videos .

7/9/10 – Tuesday

My date with my pearl , Asha . Usually , I would meet her at her house but since she had a class that morning , we decided to meet at One Utama instead . And so I did . I waited for her at the cinema and she finally came a moment later with my ‘madu’ , Ety ! ;) It was so good seeing her again . Was hoping to see Helena yet didn’t have the chance because she had to go back to her village today . Oh well , after Raya , we can meet up ! ;) We went to buy the movie tickets next . After we bought the tickets , we walked , took pictures , talked about Kpop related stuff , walked , talked about Kpop and walked again . LOL ;p Well , we had to do something to pass the time until the movie starts . We watched Step Up 3 3D . And let me tell you , it was off the hook ! I’ve always loved watching Step Up and have watched Step Up 1 and 2 . So , I was expecting Step Up 3 yet I having it in 3D made it out of this world . The dances were awe-inspiring , breath-taking ,far-fetched , mind-boggling and just extraordinary . I would go on but I think you know what I mean . It was as though we were really there and I had a hard time restraining myself from cheering and screaming when watching it . I totally loved it ! ;) We didn’t even realize that it was already time for us to break our fast when the movie ended . So , we bought mineral waters and mashed potato and Asha drove us to Jusco Wangsamaju to have our dinner . We ate at Black Canyon and then went to Asha’s place to wait for my parents to fetch me . Overall , today was memorable ! :)

Nothing Much

2010-09-05T00:48:00.001+08:00

As I’m sitting alone in my room, listening to songs and doing my assignment, a thought just popped into my head like hot popcorn. What will my life be after I graduate? That is, if I do graduate. Somehow, this mysterious question just appeared out of thin air and started making me wonder the various possibilities of it. Will I further my studies? Will I get a job? Or will I just sit at home and be a couch potato for a few months until my parents kick me out to find a job? 101 questions I started asking myself. To some, might say it’s too early for me to be thinking about it but it wouldn’t hurt to think ahead. My head hurts every time these questions invade my brain and I don’t know how to control it. The same goes with emotions.

Lately, my mood swings have gone haywire and I don’t know how to get a grip at it. We don’t control our emotions, yet it controls us. We are merely their puppet, following whatever they want to do. Even my friends are baffled by my sudden changes. I loathe myself for not being able to control myself well. In the morning, I would be all smiles yet in the afternoon, the smiles would turn into frowns, but then at night I would be all smiles again and vice versa. I don’t know what’s come over me. It’s as though someone is playing with the mood remote control that I keep changing from one mood to the other.

home sweet home

2010-09-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

I'm back home after 2 weeks of not returning . That's all I want to say . LOL ;p I don't actually have the mood to type longer so , I'll give an update .. soon . (I hope) .

Update

2010-08-28T22:56:00.004+08:00

Hello fellow earthlings! :) For this post, I’ve decided to give an update about myself since a lot, well not exactly a lot but there have been some changes in my life. Let’s see, where do I begin ?

I’m not going to start with my name though because then it’ll be daft since my name is all over my blog. If you still don’t know my name, then I have no idea what you’ve been doing or reading all this time. As you are aware, well at least I think you’re aware, I’m now studying in Kolej Profesional Mara, Indera Mahkota Kuantan. I’m taking Diploma in English Communication since I’ve always been interested in English. FYI, I love learning languages. I love it so much that I always insert foreign words (besides English) when talking with my friends or family. It’s fun, you should try it . ;p Speaking of which, I miss learning Afrikaans and Zulu. :(

Moving on, I’ve become more valiant in front of people. As in, presenting or acting and anything that relates to it. And I owe it all to the course that I’m taking because I’ve been presenting and acting in role-plays a lot that I’ve lost the butterflies in my stomach and can no longer feel the anxiety of it.

I’m also now a Kpop fan. Well, I started last year, but it still counts as new since it hasn’t been that long. Actually, the word fan can’t describe me. An obsessed fan is the correct word. I don’t get obsessed with stuff easily but when I do, I’m really into it. Like the Twilight Saga. The songs in my phone are 50% Korean songs and counting. Whenever I put my earphones on, Korean songs are all I listen to. Lately, I tend to listen to music on my way to class, after class and sometimes even in class. I would like to express my gratitude to my cousin (Kak Nana) and my twin friend (Nadia) for introducing it to me, yet it also becomes a pleasure curse. Even my laptop is conquered with Korean dramas, music videos, reality shows and video clips. Almost 80% of the memory is filled with Korean related stuff. English entertainment is being neglected slowly by me. And don’t get me started on the reactions. For example, when I watch a performance, music video, reality show or simply saw a picture of my favourite celebrity especially the guys, I would scream in excitement. Like literally scream in excitement, not only that but I also tend to hit whoever is near me because I’m too happy. Usually the victims would be my sisters and my friends. LOL ;p . And whenever I would read any heartbreaking stories about my favourite artists or even see them cry, I would burst into tears as well. I am so attached to it. I’m a mess. ;p My sisters are also Kpop fans yet I admit, I’m the worse. I’m turning into Nad. LMAO!

Moving on. If you would notice, my recent posts are a bit of a downer. There’s a reason for that and sorry, but it’s bit private. Mind you, I know this is my blog but I can’t simply just reveal everything you know. I don’t want to be butt naked thank you very much. All I can say is that I am fatigued with all the dramas that have been going on around me. It’s wrapping me like a cocoon and I’m suffocating.

I don't know what else to write, so I'll stop here. Until then, have a good life people ! :)

just smile syirah

2010-08-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

I keep doing the opposite of what I intend to do . I , myself don’t know what is happening to me . Every since I came here , or specifically, studied here , I became another person . I’m not exactly wearing a mask nor am I showing a 100% of myself . It’s something that I cannot describe but all I know is that I’m not one of those people who pretends to be someone else , or as I might call them ; plastics. I’m actually quite comfortable being just me . However , like a chocolate chip cookie , there is always a chocolate chip hidden somewhere in the cookie that we didn’t realize and that implies to me . Somewhere hidden inside me , I have a chocolate chip or a few more that people don’t know about . I tend to cover it as much as I can so that it won’t create any nonsensical arguments between me and my friends . I’m the type that hides what I feel . I may seem okay on the outside but on the inside only Allah knows how much I’m hurting . The same goes with my health problems . I try to conceal it as much as I can , at times people didn’t notice but there are some times where they do notice and starts bombarding me with 101 questions . Don’t get me wrong , it’s not like I’m ungrateful or anything , in fact , I am . I am so grateful and touched that they notice me and care about me but I just don’t like to make them worry . Lately , my appetite’s been decreasing and I’m always accompanied by headaches and chest pains . Have no clue what’s going on , but I tend to act as if nothing’s wrong . Stress has been invading my life as well these days . Again , I may look okay but the there’s a lot going on inside me . I’ve given up . I’m letting the chips fall where they may now .

Strong on the outside , weak on the inside . That’s the perfect statement that fits my situation right now . Put on a fake smile and no one will know .

crap

2010-08-18T13:38:00.002+08:00

I beg you please , please don’t use the word love if you don’t know how to use it . Seeing someone for the first time is not love . Yes , I know there’s such a thing called “love at first sight” but it is very and I mean VERY infrequent . It doesn’t happen every time you set your flirty eyes on a girl/boy . That is not love sweetie , that’s called a crush . It’s an utterly , from tip to toe , a different thing . If that’s not outlandish and asinine enough , then saying you love me when you haven’t even met me is more preposterous . Honey , I don’t even know you and I know the same goes to you . The only thing you do know about me is how I look because of the pictures in my Myspace and Facebook and a few details which I posted in the ‘about me’ section in my profile . Or saying you’ve read my blog so you feel you know me is also very daft . We haven’t even chatted , let alone met once . Not once ! So , how can that be love ? Don’t imply love on every ludicrous thing . Love is such a precious feeling , a precious word so don’t use it accordingly or if you don’t know how to use it . It’s such a waste .

Here’s another absurd and harebrained situation , and that is you asking me to ‘play’ with you . Excuse me ? Do I look like some cheap whore who is eager to sell my body to filthy men or just give myself away just like that ? You may think it’s the ‘trend’ now or many people have done it so it’s no big deal , but to certain people who actually HAS a brain , it IS a big deal . Here’s the thing , if you want to ‘play’ so much , then go look for those cheap and worthless sluts on the streets that actually love to entertain people like you . Because unlike you guys , the rest of us are working our butts off or squeezing our brains for exams and tests so that we could get good jobs in the future . We HAVE a brain and we could actually DIFFERENTIATE the difference between good and bad which I might say you have a hard time doing so . Just leave me alone please .

new chapter

2010-08-13T15:49:00.002+08:00

Another chapter is introduced into the book of life ; first experience of breaking fast with peeps without parents in the hostel . Mind you , it may not seem such a big deal but to me it is . So , be it . If at home , I would be the first one at the dining table , eager for the Azan to be heard , yet somehow it's different here . For one , I don't really feel like eating anything heavy . Second , I wasn't so thrilled or excited waiting for the Azan to be heard so that I can eat . I don't know what came over me but it is so not like me . Homesick maybe ? I don't think so . Not in a rude way that is . Don't get me wrong , I do miss eating with my family but I'm not crying over it or anything .

Me and my roommates ate along with the seniors next door since our room is connected . Plus , it seems more merrier eating together . The feeling I had was inexpressible . It was a new feeling that I couldn’t identify somehow yet I liked it . We had leftovers though especially the kuih-muih that our dearest senior bought for us at the Ramadhan Bazaar . We told him to buy just a few , yet he bought a lot and as the result , we couldn’t finish it . I only ate one kind and I was already full . We are not the same as him . One him equals to the 3 of us you know ? Sorry oppa . LOL ;p . We had to eat it later at night to finish it or else it would be such a waste . He is such a sweetheart for willing to buy , scratch that , TREATED us to the afters . Well , he wanted it to be all on him , but we gave him topup afterwards because he already bought us doughnuts once before so we couldn’t let it be . He was once actually the senior that was assigned in my orientation group . He’s really solicitous , witty , sweet and might I add , quite adorable . ;) To show how close we are with him , me and my friends made him do sorta like a trademark for every time we meet him . He looks so adorable every time he does it , like Yo Seop (B2ST) ! ;p Unsure if he’s reading this or not but if he is , well then.. LMAO ! ;p

By the way , yesterday I couldn’t sleep well due to the incessant ringing of my phone of text messages that keep overflowing my inbox . I keep finding myself awake all of a because of my ringing tone . I wanted to put it on silent mode but I set an alarm so I’m afraid it will get affected . Dear friends , I know you love me and wanted to wish me a happy fasting month and all but can’t you send me the text before 2 am or after 6 am ? Why does it have to be at 3 am , 4 am , 5 am ? I love you for remembering me so early in the morning that you guys even decided to wake me up so that I can have my early breakfast . But sweeties , I eat my early breakfast around 12 am because I don’t want to wake up so early the next day . So , you don’t need to trouble yourselves to wake me up . Thank you though . I love you guys . :D

Ramadhan is here :)

2010-08-11T13:20:00.002+08:00

Finally , what I've been waiting for is here ; Ramadhan ! Mind you , I love Ramadhan , I love fasting . So , let's welcome it with our arms wide open and warmth in our hearts . Since the holy month is here , I would like to apologize for any wrongdoings I have againts you whether it was intentionally or not . I am sincerely sorry . Nil-nil okie ? I wish you all the best in completing your fasts . Don't skip your fasts especially if it's on purpose ! ;p Goodluck ! ;)

A lot of things have happened while my stay here , but since it's a lot I'll find another time to update you . So , just wait for it okie ? Until then , later .

and again ..

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN & SELAMAT BERPUASA ! :)

Surreal

2010-08-04T09:07:00.003+08:00

I just found out something in disbelief . Something shocking . Something , to me is surreal . I still can't accept that fact . Did it really happen ? Tears are trying to burst out yet I hold it in for fear of worrying my classmates . :'/

Adeline Carol

2010-08-02T11:33:00.006+08:00

A lot has happened but the recent one is that my close friend , my partner in crime , my Kpop buddy , my dance partner , my Nickhun lover , has left me and my friends to study in Maktab Perguruan in Kedah . She is very close to us . She is one of us and there isn't anyone else like her . I cried my eyes out and now still depressed but have to move on with life . Her name is Adeline Carol , and she is one in a million . I even wrote a long poem to her .

Here's the poem :

Loud and eccentric describes you
Laughter and smiles you give to others
Helping and concerning about your friends is your specialty
Listening to music non-stop is your habit
Respecting other people and other religion is your gift
Special and unique is what you are

Dancing to After School - Because of You with you no more
Eating at the cafeteria with you no more
Seeing your face in our room no more
Jogging in the evening with you no more
Hearing you squeal when you see your 'kambing' no more
Hearing your LOL laugh in class no more
Having you as my partner in crime no mroe
Loving Nickhun with you no more
Seeing your presence everyday no more

You will always be our friend
You will always be our loud , eccentric , bizarre Adeline
You have brought us happiness
So we'll try to do the same to you
Eventhough , you're not with us physically
But you're with us in our hearts and minds

Thank you for giving us smiles and laughter
Thank you for caring for us
Thank you for listening to our problems
Thank you for being our friend
Thank you for being just you and no one else

Our friendship is one of the greatest blessings in my lfie
I'm so glad that we can open our hearts
Share our hopes and dreams
Our sad times and our happy times
Even if it was just a few weeks
Knowing that this friendship we share
Will just keep growing stronger everyday makes me happy

We will always keep in contact . Don't forget us .
Sarangheyo nan chinguya ! :')

p.s ; sorry if my english or the poem is crappy . It's been awhile since I've written poems .

College Life

2010-07-15T16:14:00.005+08:00

Hola readers ! It’s been a while since I last updated my blog hasn’t it ? To those who have been waiting for an update , I’m working on it , don’t worry . To those who didn’t notice anything , well , you can go back doing your own business thank you . ;p

Back to the story , it’s been 9 days since I set foot in Kolej Profesional Mara . It’s a new experience for me since I haven’t been apart from my family ever . As I absorbed the fresh new milieu around me , memories started overflowing my brain and an inside projector flashed pictures of me and my friends before my eyes . Tears wanting to come down yet I hold it in as it was no use crying over something so small . I started missing my friends . I started to hark back to the time when I was a newbie in high school , how I met my friends in SMK Setiawangsa , SMK Putrajaya Presint 9(1) and SMK Putrajaya Presint 8(1) , the various activities held by my previous schools , the drama I had with my teachers and friends and golden moments I had together with my friends and best friends . All of it were replaying in my head like a rerun of a movie on HBO .

To this very day , the thought of me being a college student is still surreal to me . I still feel like a high school student instead of a college student eventhough it’s been past a week of my existence here . I see the campus , I see the cafeteria , I see the classes , I see the hostels , I see the lecturers and I see the college students ; a perfect college life , yet somehow , I still can’t grasp at the fact that I am one of them . I am a college student . I am done with high school . I am done with SPM . I’ve grown . Time has zoom by so fast that it’s all a blur . If possible , I want to rewind time like in the Lara Craft movie . I’m not going to change anything in the past because the past is the past . I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world because without the past there wouldn’t be a today . I wouldn’t be who I am , where I am and what I’m doing . I just want go back to the golden times and relive it again so that I could cherish it more . Since it’s an impossible task , I’ll just have to do what they always say ; move on .

So far , my stay here have been a very intriguing , stimulating and a fascinating ride especially during orientation week . However , orientation week was a bit more demanding , gruelling and arduous . At the end of the day , I end up dead beat and out of breath yet it was not bad . Albeit , all that sweat and the throbbing , I have no regrets coming here , in fact , I felt happy because it was worth it . It was about time for me to push myself again and the seniors helped me with it . Although , they were a few who got on the bad side of the seniors and as the result , we all had to bear the punishment together , I don’t really mind because the seniors gave us the warning and they have it more tough than us . I felt sorry for the seniors though because they had to stay behind and take care of us and bear with our nuisance especially those who were very rude . I salute the seniors for being patient and sporting . I am indeed grateful to them and have grown to love them even if they don’t know it . ;)

Moving on , my roommates are just superb . We rearranged the beds and tables to make it more comfortable and later we’re going to decorate it to make it homier . Note ; my roommates are Myra and Tira for short . Our room is connected to the room next door through a door . Meaning , I can go next door through the door in my room . Next door is full of seniors and my friend , Alya . The seniors are very sporting and friendly . Whenever I get bored , I would go to the seniors’ room and just chill with them . They’re fun . :) They’re also Kpop fans so that’s going to make my three years of living here more fun . :p I already made tons of friends here because most of them are very warm and friendly while others are just plain old snobbish . I even have a friend who apparently lives near my home in Sri Kembangan and another who is from Sabah . They’re both very adorable . ;) I’m relieved that it’s not as hard as I thought it would be . For me , this whole thing feels just like a long sleepover with my friends where we would sleep together , hang out together , eat together and go to classes together . It just feels like a sleepover . Nonetheless , washing my own clothes is a drag for me . Mind you , I’m not some spoilt brat who doesn’t know how to wash clothes . So , don’t judge before knowing the real me . Speaking of which , ever since I entered here , I became more talkative , more lively and more hyper . I don’t know whether it’s because of my new friends or because of the new air around me but I like it .

I think I’m going to stop here for now . A lot has been happening but if I were to write it all down , I don’t know when I’ll finish . I won’t be able to update my blog , Facebook , and Myspace as often as I can because the internet here is a tad slow . Even so , my Twitter will always be up to date because I’ll be doing it via SMS . So , you can follow me on my Twitter (http://www.twitter.com/RoseJean) to know my updates . As for the rest , you’ll just wait patiently . Till then , I wish all college / university students luck in their studies especially my bestfriends , close friends and friends . I miss you my darling pearls ! Can’t wait to meet you guys soon .

Adios . ;)

[more pictures are on my Facebook]

Monday , 5/7/10

2010-07-05T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hola readers . It’s been a while since I wrote a proper post hasn’t it ? Sorry but I just didn’t have the mood to write . A lot has been happening to me during the past few months and if I were to type it down , I can’t recall all of them so I’m just going to type about what’s been happening recently and what’s going to happen to me . I’ll try to type in as much as I can remember . Heads up , my memory’s not that good though . So , here goes nothing .

I’m stuck . LOL ;p I haven’t been writing in a while so my mind is as blank as a white canvas . I need to sharpen my brain since I’ll be going to college soon . My brain now is really rusty . Entertainment and Kpop seems to be conquering my brain . Well , that’s what you get for spending 7 months of free time doing nothing since my mum won’t allow me to work . My english is getting crappier too and I’m taking English Communication course in my college . Gah ! I really need to snap back to reality .

Anyways , a few days ago , I went to my best friend’s house for a sleepover . I actually planned to go earlier than the day that I went yet somehow obstacles kept getting in the way . I don’t know why there were so many complications when it comes to seeing her . Finally , I went over to her place on Friday . Fattah and Muqsid were kind enough to drive me there. None of us actually knew the way to go to her place . Even though , I’ve been there tons of times and I’ve actually lived there once but I was not the kind who paid attention to the road when my dad drives . I would usually listen to the radio , day-dream or doze off , so I didn’t know the way . We got lost a couple of times . It was our first time going to a place where we don’t know the way and just went with the flow . It was nice though because we went for a ride . Haha ;p . Before headed to Asha’s place , we went to my aunty’s place to drop off her clothes that she left at my place when she slept over then headed to KLCC to collect the B2ST CD that Asha’s friend had booked for me . It was nice seeing my Asha and Helena again after not seeing them for so long . Asha’s friend , Ety was also there . She’s a close friend of Asha and now she’s my friend as well . We bonded really quickly . And we owe it all to Yo Seop from B2ST because he helped us get closer , not directly though . LOL ;p Here’s the thing , it turns out that Ety’s also a fan of Yo Seop like me . So , because we have something in common , it was easier to talk to each other . Now , we’re close and I love it . Hee :) By the way , in that sleepover , all four of us (me , Asha , Helena and Ety) are Kpop fans . So , we spent our night talking about Kpop and watched Kpop videos . haha ;p . It was nice though . :) The next day , we went to B2ST’s showcase and autograph session as you can see from the previous post . It was awesome ! We made signs and everything . Me and Ety made an unforgettable moment during the autograph session to Yo Seop which made it even more valuable :D . We even kept talking about it for a few days . B2ST were really friendly during the autograph session . We smiled at each other , made eye contacts and said “Hi” to each other . Not only Yo Seop but also the other members were friendly . It was a very treasured day for me . ;) Later , Fattah , Muqsid and Nadia came and picked me up . Nadia wanted to meet B2ST too but she was too late when she arrived because they had just left . Haha . Fattah drove me home that day and again we took wrong turns which made me arrived home quite late . Thank you Fattah and Muqsid for driving me to and fro . You guys are the best . :) And thank you Nadia for accompanying me . I love you – lah ! <3

Yesterday , we went to Sha’s place for an event . I went over to Nadia’s place to pick her up then headed to Amaq’s place because we decided to ride with Amaq . We fetched Fatin first before headed off to Sha’s place . At Sha’s place , we ate , talked and took pictures . Fatin gave like an album full of pictures to Sha and we wrote messages for Sha and inserted it in the album as well . It was really nice . Fatin’s just too sweet ! :) Before we left , we had a nice hug with each other and said our farewells . Sha ! You will be the farthest from us . So , I hope you take good care of yourself . I wish you nothing but the best in your life . Don’t forget us here . We’ll meet again soon I hope . Forgive me for every little thing that I’ve done to hurt you . Good luck . I love you ! <33

Tomorrow , I’ll be leaving for college . We planned to leave at 3 am since the registration starts at 8 am . I’m 90% done packing . I’m actually feeling very edgy right now . I just can’t believe that I’m done with SPM , I’m done with high school and I’ll be studying in college soon . Gosh , how time zooms by without me realizing it and before you know it , soon I'll be job hunting . haihh . How I wish time would slow down . I guess it’s true what they say ; Time is precious . This will be my last post for a while . If I have time , I’ll update later and tell you what my college is like . Wish me luck .

To Amaq and Nad : First of all , forgive me for all the things that I’ve done wrong towards you . I wish you success in everything you do . I also wish you happiness . Study hard and have fun while you’re at it . I hope our friendship will last forever and hopefully get stronger . I am grateful to know both of you and be friends with you guys . Thank you for all the good deeds that you’ve done to me . I will forever cherish you and carry you in my heart . We’ll meet again soon . I LOVE YOU ! <3

To Asha and Helena : Forgive me as well for all the things that I’ve done to hurt you . I wish you happiness and success in your life . Thank you for being the greatest best friend I could ever hope for . Thank you for your 6 years of blissful friendship . You will always be engraved in my heart . I hope our friendship will grow even stronger in the future . Good luck in your colleges . Study hard and don’t forget to have fun as well . Don’t forget our promise to go to the Super Junior Super Show 3 together along with Ety . I hope it won’t be on the weekdays or on our exam week . LOL . We’ll work it out later . haha ;p . Lastly , I LOVE YOU ! <33

Until then , wish me luck . ;)

*p.s : sorry if my English is crappy . I'm a bit rusty . ;p

good luck Sha :)

2010-07-04T21:36:00.003+08:00

Sha oh Sha ! Good luck studying there . :) I wish you all the best and all the luck and all the success ! Hee :) Study hard there and have fun while you're at it . Come home once in a while and we'll have a reunion ! Weeee :)

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST !

HAVE FUN !

I LOVE YOU ! <3

SEE YOU SOON . :)

B2ST :)

2010-06-28T18:54:00.003+08:00

They were so hot live ! ;) Yo Seop was effing adorable ! Me and Ety had a very unforgettable moment during the fan signing . :p

Overall , it was a thrill spending quality time with my bestfriends plus Ety plus B2ST ! :D

p.s : more pictures will be uploaded as soon as I get it from Asha . ;)

reposting :)

2010-06-21T01:52:00.001+08:00

This was a poem made by my friend when we were in form 4 . Oh how I miss my classmates . :')

Sirih berlipat sirih pinang
Sirih dari Putrajaya
Pemanis kata Selamat Datang
Awal Bismillah pembuka bicara.

Tingkat 2 kelas kami
4 Sigma 4 nama diberi
13 Putera 18 Puteri
Belajar dalam aman & harmoni.

Memberi nasihat tanpa henti
untuk kebaikan di lain hari
Time mengandung comel sekali
Puan Marlina nama diberi.

Dengar "Assalaamualaikum Cikgu" setiap hari
Ahmad Nufairi monitor kami
Orangnya tinggi, happy sekali
Arahan diberi langsung tak peduli.

Noor Faezah suke lumba lari
Assistant monitor jawatan diberi
Berhidung tinggi & pandai menari
Mengumpat pula menjadi hobi.

Jika tiada, sunyilah kami
Jika ada, penyeri kami
Gelaran "PENGEBOM" sudah sebati
Itulah Faris Ahmad Zabidi.

Kurus & tinggi fizikal die nie
Itulah Huda sape lagi.
Bermain bola hebat sekali
Syed Faris nama diberi.

Mesti tido setiap hari
Itulah Izzudin & Ipin Rosli.
Lain pula kisah si Haida nie
Kadet polis tetap dihati.

Markah ujian tak boleh nak lawan
Nama Afiq menjadi sebutan.
Nie pula cerita Marwan
Agak pendiam, ntah-ntah ada sawan.

Sekali pandang comel orangnya
Jaga-jaga sudah berpunya
Sanggup berkorban semi cintanya
Saidatul Syahida diberi nama.

Bila cikgu ada fokuslah kononnya
Bila cikgu keluar kecoh dibuat mereka
Sape lagi kalau bukan mereka berdua
Amirul dan Abu Bakr lah orangnya.

Julieana dan Nabilah nama diberi
2 pelajar sehati sejiwa
Suka makan coklat Cadbury
Tak kire di mana jua.

Dalam kelas bising orangnya
Suka bercakap tak henti-henti
Itulah Asmaq diberi nama
Kalau tiada, kelas terus senyap sunyi.

Bermata sepet ketika ketawa
Bila ketawa lupa dunia
Suka melatah tak kire masa
Fatin Azliya diberi nama.

Ini pula Atikah Ramlee
Bab fesyen memang digemari
Celak tak penah lekang di jari
Bajet nak cantik macam puteri.

Berbaju biru setiap hari
Syaheedan pengawas kelas kami
Ingat ke baik, berbudi pekerti
Perangai die sama macam kami.

Kemana-mana mesti bersama
Tidak kira kemana sahaja
Seorang Syahirah, seorang Nadia
Menjadi rebutan ramai jejaka.

Orangnya cute tinggi sekali
Nama Madihah, kami panggil Mady.
Lain pula cerita Azhani
Dari Indonesia terbang ke sini.

Ada kedai di kelas kami
Suke jual "Chokie-Chokie"
Add Math pula subjek diminati
Haifaa Ali empunya diri.

Orangnya kecil, relax sentiasa
Pemalu, pendiam adalah sikapnya
Syahirah Sharuddin diberi nama
"Syirow" pula gelaran dirinya.

Student Tahfiz ada 2
Seorang rendah, seorang tinggi
Memang baik, berhati mulia
Itulah Syed Zulfaez & juga Syahmi.

Sekarang ini sedang bercinta
Bercinta dengan tingkatan 5
Time dating, bawa adik bersama
Sape tak kenal, Amiralah orangnya.

Pergi ke sekolah sesuka hati
Banyak mulut, banyak bunyi
Kalau tak ada sunyilah kami
Itulah Umirah yg happy go lucky.

Namanya Sheera, parenz dye bagi
Orangnya suka tersenyum sendiri.
Laen pula si Irsyad nie
Paling sporting dan comel sekali.

2,3 badak belari
Mana nak sama seloka kami
Ia sekadar penghibur hati
Jangan disimpan di dalam hati.

Semalam terjumpa sebungkus julap
Terjumpa dekat kedai ikan
Jika ada salah & silap
Harap sume dapat maafkan!

-credits to Nurfairi-

Hanna (Bestie) - Remember Me Always

2010-06-19T02:54:00.002+08:00

Remember me always ,

I can't tell you the answers ,

To the questions I have ,

But I want you to know ,

I will always love you as my friend ,

And when you're heart is troubled ,

I want you to think of me ,

Remember the times of joy ,

We have shared ,

And maybe it will make you smile ,

And since you can't take me with you ,

Take the memories we have made ,

And cherish them ,

As I always will .

World Cup = South Africa

2010-06-13T20:54:00.001+08:00

With all this World Cup fever going on , it has made me miss South Africa even more . I miss shopping in Sandton City , I miss swimming in Sun City , I miss eating the yogurt, dried fruits, jun k food and others there . I miss my friends there as well . I really wish to go back there again someday and I hope I will . I’d love to write more about South Africa , but I don’t think I can or I will start tearing up soon . So instead , you can read my previous post about it . Here’s the url : http://thegirlslyfe.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html

I’m normally not into soccer as much but since I’m making an exception since it’s the World Cup . I support 2 countries which are Korea and of course South Africa (bafana bafana ! :D ) . Aja aja fighting ! :p

Charice Pempengco

2010-06-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

Charice is all grown up now . It seems just like it was yesterday she was introduced by Oprah when she was 16 . I have been following her updates ever since . I am so proud of what she's archived now . :) Her latest song Pyramid is a hit . It came out a long time actually but I didn't have the mood to post the video yet so here it is . I absolutely love her ! :)

And here's the posts I posted about her a long time ago :

http://thegirlslyfe.blogspot.com/2009_01_01_archive.html

http://thegirlslyfe.blogspot.com/2009_06_01_archive.html

Birthday Wishes

2010-06-09T19:15:00.002+08:00

Thank you to all who gave me birthday wishes . I really appreciate it . I love you lah ! <33

here's the top 10 who gave me the birthday wish :

1. Nadia (of course)

2. Amir

3. Maddy

4. Bella

5. Asha

6. Bibik

7. Aiman (my aerobic buddy)

8. Fairi

9. Azhani

10. Chong

thanks again :)

Blank

2010-06-01T12:33:00.002+08:00

I actually planned to write a long post but somehow my mind is blank . I can't think of anything . So , until my mind is active again , I'll write soon . By the way , I'm warming up to Facebook and slowly neglecting Myspace . So , if you want anything , add me up in my Facebook . ;)

Back home

2010-05-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

I just got back from my cousin's house . Not really in the mood to tell the story but I'll do it soon . Meanwhile , you can see the photos in my Facebook . FYI , yes , I've gotten chubbier and fatter so zip it . I don't need comments . ;p

p.s : I can't watch Eclipse because it will premier on 8 July and I register in college on 6 July ! Oh man ! I want to watch Eclipse !! :'(

Will be away

2010-05-20T20:57:00.003+08:00

I'll be away for a week so I won't update anything nor will I go on Myspace or Facebook . Can't wait to see my little cousins soon and spend a whole week with Kak Nana . :)

Laterr :)

Mood : Lazy and Not Bothered

2010-05-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Right now , I am quite lazy to be active in my Myspace , Facebook , Blogger and Twitter . So , for the people who have been waiting for me to accept requests , please be patient . LOL . ;p Plus , I'm not bothered to topup my phone thus , I can't reply your text messages as I have no airtime / credit . Sorry . Heh ;p .

Eclipse Eclipse ! :)

2010-05-06T00:15:00.005+08:00

Check out these Eclipse trailers ! They're awesome . I have a feeling that this one won't disappoint me like New Moon . I hope so . Still , can't wait to see the movie ! Aaaaaaaaaaa ! *screaming at the top of my lungs * LOL :p

Decided

2010-05-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

Based on people's suggestions , opinions , experiences and my own interest , I have decided to go to Kolej Profesional Mara (KPM) , for Diploma in English Communication . I am going to take the road not taken and be adventurous instead of taking the road that's been taken by others and follow the crowd . Glamour isn't always everything . Sure , UITM is glamourous but KPM has offered what I'm interested in . So , thank you to others who have been helping me make my decision . I love you ! :)

That means , I can still make it to watch Eclipse ! Yeayy ! LMAO ! ;p Amaq ! Nad ! Khalil ! Muqsid ! Pa'an ! Faris ! Fattah ! Hani ! Fairi ! Sheedan ! Basyar ! Sha ! Fatin ! Dayah ! Murni ! and to my other friends whose names aren't listed , let's go out together for the last time before we all head our separate ways !

Asha and Helena ! Let's have a sleepover ! :)

Kak Nana ! I want to follow you to Ipoh ! Heee :) By the way , good luck on your final exams . Come get me when you're done and free . LOL ! ;p

I am so going to miss all my friends . :(

Dilema

2010-05-03T12:30:00.005+08:00

I don't know where I want to go . I did know at first but then my parents kept talking and asking other people , now I'm just not sure . Either I further my studies in MARA , Kuantan for Diploma in English Communication or UITM , Kedah for Information Management . I'm really confused . Some say it's better to go to UITM because there will be a lot of job opportunities , but then my dad's friend who is a lecturer in information management at some university says that it's better to go to MARA because English language is demanding nowadays and there are already a lot of people taking information management . Gaaah ! I'm torn in between those two . I don't know what to take now . Ya Allah , please help me make the right decision . Tell me what you guys think as well .

Something just popped into my head , either way , I can't watch Eclipse ! Eclipse will premier either late June or early July . By then I'll either be busy preparing for the registration or already started studying . Oh man ! I want to watch Eclipse ! My dear Edward Cullen . :(

compulsory

2010-05-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

Before we all head our separate ways , we all have to go out one last time . Have to !

:)

2010-04-30T23:53:00.008+08:00

I'm actually not in the mood to write but I'll post some pictures .

at the dentist

girl's day out

a day out with aunt, cousins and family

home sweet home

2010-04-26T12:59:00.004+08:00

I'm back from the sleepover at my aunty's ! It's good to be home not that I don't enjoy being at my aunty's place . I do but it's just nice to be back after I've slept there around a week or so . I had fun though . I even went to my aunty's school when she had extra class to teach . It was nice to see her school again . Her students were very ... curious about me . LOL . Even my aunty's friend who is also a teacher there told me that his students were curious about me when they saw me at school with my aunty . I like my aunty's friend . He's funny . ;p

Anyways , for babysitting my cousins and accompanying her , my aunty bought me new make-up set . Hee ;p . Thank you aunty ! :D On my last night there , my cousin (Kak Nana) , my mum and both my sisters decided to sleepover as well . So , they came around 4-5 pm and it was chaos . We went to Wangsa Walk for window shopping then went to this steak house for dinner . Me and my sisters were a bit hyper after we ate . We sang and danced and laughed so hard that our mouth felt like it was going to come off . LOL . My cousin just watched us with awe . ;p The next day , we went to Jusco for breakfast , then headed off to Alpha Angle for window shopping then to the Amy Search's restaurant for lunch , then to Wangsa Walk because my mum had stuff to buy , then finally back to my aunty's place before headed home . Amy Search's restaurant was an Islamic Chinese restaurant . Me and my cousin choked after seeing the price on the food but my aunty insisted on eating there and it was her treat . So , we did and it was not bad . We laughed with shock when we saw the size of the Char Kuey Teow . It was huge ! We thought it would be normal sized but we were wrong . My sister took pictures of it but I'm too lazy to upload it . Sorry . heh ;p . In a nutshell , I had a swell time . ;)

p.s : Nad's coming back tomorrow ! Heee ;)

hello peoples :)

2010-04-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hola ! I am so very terribly sorry for being a passive online-er . I'm just not bothered to online these days like I used to . I don't know why . There's nothing new to update anyway so you guys aren't missing anything . However , I will be going for a sleepover at my aunty's tomorrow until Saturday . I have to accompany her due to the fact that her husband is away on business . She's afraid of sleeping alone . I don't know what her 'alone' is since she has 3 sons and a daughter with her at home yet she still wants me to sleepover . LOL .

I'm actually feeling rather fatigued lately . I have no idea why even though I haven't done much . Maybe my stamina's decreasing . Oh well . I just realized something , soon and I mean very soon , I will be in college or university . Gosh , time really does fly . In truth , I'm actually quite edgy about entering the university life . I don't know what to expect . haihh . I want to go back to high school where I can mingle with my friends once more and fool around . The memories of my high school days are still overflowing my mind . I miss school .

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2010-04-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

10 perkara tentang pemilik blog..

1 : Obsessed with the Twilight Saga & BOF (The SoEulmate couple to be exact ;p)
2 : Absolutely loves dancing
3 : I live to eat ;p
4 : Can't stand the sight of cockroaches
5 : Can't leave the house without my phone
6 : have amazing friends <3
7 : Loves shopping (who doesn't ? ;p)
8 : loves fashion (i love to accessorize ;p )
9 : started wearing heels and make-up since I was 8 years old ! LOL ;p
10 : I daydream and fantasize a lot ! ;p

apa yg anda akan buat kalau kawan anda tikam belakang anda?

forgive and forget

6 orang di hati anda

my family
my besties (Asha , Hanna & Helena)
my close friends (Nad , Asmaq , Murni , Khalil , Muqsid )
my friends and classmates of 2008/2009
my close cousin (kak nana)
and the people who loves me ;)

p.s ; yeah , i know it's more than 6 people but what can I do since I have a lot of pearls in my heart ? ;)

Anda rasa anda comel?

hah , so not . there are more people who are cuter .

Single or taken?

single but not looking for anyone

Blog yang anda suka.

all my friends' blogs ;)

Adakah bilik anda kemas tiap-tiap hari?

unfortunately , yes ! haha . if my room is a mess even for one day , my mum will explode . LOL ;p

Lagu terakhir anda dengar?

The song that Adam & Stacy sang at the Berita Harian awards . (can't remember the title of the song though)

Last text message?

it was from Pa'an but I didn't reply because I still haven't topup . heh . sorry pa'an . haha ;p

Last phone call?

it was from my mum . LOL ;p

Hari terakhir anda menangis?

can't remember . I think it was the day I got back from the sleepover at Amaq's .

Website yang paling anda suka?

http://aznv.tv

Orang terakhir anda berYM?

err , can't remember . haven't been on YM for a while now .

Game yang paling anda suka?

computer games or what ?? haha .

Adakah anda peminat MCR?

err , nope ! ;p

Apa perasaan anda semasa buat tag ni?

bored ! haha

Anda rasa tag ni best?

i don't know . ;p

Tag lagi 10 orang.

hanna
asha
azhani
basya
balqis
naz
kak atikah
alya
mariam
tniey

Pesanan untuk orang yang anda tag?

hmm , have fun doing it ? haha . it doesn't matter if you want to do it or not . ;p

DONE:)
haihh

A Puerile's Notion

Korean Pop (Kpop)

Untitled

Goodbye Second Home

Do I Still Have The Right?

Second Home

Shanghai, China

Short Entry

Rusty

change?

March Already?

College Mates :)

*insert title*

Happy New Year :D

Dedicated To You Guys ; SNSD - Best Friend

Narnia 3D

Antis / Haters

Finally ;p

26 November 2010; Kak Nana's convocation

생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)

Ola ;)

M.I.A ?

Friendship & Life

Happy Eid Mubarak

Current Events

Nothing Much

home sweet home

Update

just smile syirah

crap

new chapter

Ramadhan is here :)

Surreal

Adeline Carol

College Life

Monday , 5/7/10

good luck Sha :)

B2ST :)

reposting :)

Hanna (Bestie) - Remember Me Always

World Cup = South Africa

Charice Pempengco

Birthday Wishes

Blank

Back home

Will be away

Mood : Lazy and Not Bothered

Eclipse Eclipse ! :)

Decided

Dilema

compulsory

:)

home sweet home

hello peoples :)

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